I was thinking...
God has a purpose for you, His moral purpose and expectations. For instance, He expects people to treat each other in a respectful manner. Actually He has a purpose for the whole world. And you contest it. You say you want to set up and rule in your own kingdom, and pursue your own purposes, and not serve God's kingdom.
Now, you may certainly contest and challenge God, but you will never overthrow him. That’s a permanent personal frustration! Or you not contest God, but you do not have the power to do what you know to be right. That’s the personal problem of lack of power, even if you have the wish.
You have a weakened will--incompatible with and disproportionate to what you really need. It’s like trying to use a cell-phone battery to run your car. The battery really has power, but it is to be used for something else.
You also notice that you don't have control over your own will. Your will is influenced by a number of factors. For example, social factors influence your will. You do what peers in society think is right, even though you know what society thinks is right is wrong.
So how do you stop fighting God and start pleasing him? By embracing the his initiative. God has taken the initiative to bridge the gap that you have created between him and you by your moral departure. We couldn't reach Him.
He has reached us.